“你爱我比这些更深吗？"

There are lines in the certain worship songs that I can’t bring myself to sing because I know I can’t do as the lyrics say, especially those about loving God over and above everything else. Being a regular musician, I sing a lot less than the congregation does, so I have gotten away with less guilt.

But tonight at the (Korean) worship session, I was reminded of this and it hurt.

So many things I can’t lay down at His feet, so many things still tightly clasped in my hands. I still haven’t learnt to let go…

Then this old Qing Shao song came to mind:

“更深吗？更深吗？
你爱我比这些更深吗？”
宁静中听恩主轻声问：
“你爱我比这些更深吗?”

“更深吗？更深吗？
你爱我比这些更深吗？”
一遍遍在耳边盘旋
“你爱我比这些更深吗？
更深吗？更深吗？”

When I sang it on stage the last time, I couldn’t help the tears.

And tonight…